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i think i just officially become the things i hate. which obviously something not cool to do. yet, i am into that recently. i let someone get into my life and completely overtake everything. like mostly everything. its sadden when i let them change me. like, how the fuck i believe that this person will accept my flaws and weaknesess? they won't.

i hardly remember the last time i ignore shits. now, almost everythings matters. and you feel completely weak. 120% weaker than you were before. you let them control your day, emotion and your decision. how sad is that?

and you have to fix it alone because you know, you only got yourself at the end of the day. its saddening. i just hate it.